I am glad I am not flawless.
Lil Gal jumped in the car after school years ago eager to tell me of an argument she’d had with a male classmate. I was surprised because the little flower child was rarely bothered by the shenanigans of other kids. As long as she knew we were headed to the lake when I picked her up, she was good with anything that came her way. She proceeded to tell me she argued with the little boy because he told her, “Your mother does not know everything!” I’m laughing now because she was so serious when she told the story.
While I was driving and listening, she said she jumped in his face and yelled at him, “My mama does know everything! You don’t know what you’re talking about!” When I stopped giggling long enough to tell her that I did not know everything, she geared up to argue with me. Up until then, I’d been able to meet her every need and answer every question her little mind could think of in one day (and there were a lot). By the time we arrived at the lake, her face was screwed up so bad preparing to cry that I almost felt bad for her.
As we fed the ducks, I explained to her that it is okay that I don’t know everything. I am not supposed to know everything and neither is she expected to know everything. Honestly, I couldn’t tell if she was more upset that I did not know everything or that her class mate had been right. Whatever the reason, it gave us the opportunity to dialogue about One who knows everything and has all the answers.
Over the years, my husband and I have openly shared our faith and have been blessed by her reception. Through her eyes, we can see clearly the beauty of the world. Both of us were raised in single parent homes and have wondered what our lives would have been like had we been blessed with a two-parent, Christ-centered home. This is part of our commitment to our marriage and our family. We just want to see. We know things happen. We know things change. We know it is not a guarantee. But we just want to see.
God’s word provides clarity for our lives. When we seek Him, he will provide the answers for us (James 1:5). My husband and I wanted answers to be good parents but not flawless parents. We wanted answers to be good people but not flawless people. We want our children to be good children but not flawless. Because we know if we are flawless, we have no need for Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. And that there – is what Satan has tricked far too many to believe – that Jesus Christ is not needed.
So, I’m thankful for my flaws and for the redeeming blood of Christ which provides comfort for me daily that I am not doomed to an eternal hell for my sins.
James 1: 5
If any you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given to him.